I am writing after a long time and it feels good to be back in the world of words. Having said that I will begin this hiatus with the recent news that has forced us to come face to face on the topic of mental health. I am sure you must have guessed by now that I am talking about Sushant Singh Rajput's death. It did come as a shock to me. I thought to myself that a man who has achieved fame and success at a young age committed suicide, which I can only imagine to achieve and here I am with nothing compared to him.
As I further looked into the reason behind his death I found he was suffering from depression, a very serious mental health problem that nobody wants to talk about. As days passed by I read in the news that a teenager who was depressed was triggered by Sushant's death and committed suicide. Another teenager committed suicide because he was harassed by society for having effeminate traits and felt that if Sushant could commit suicide then so could he.
These pieces of news triggered my past memories as I went back in time and analysed my situation. The feeling of not fitting in, not being part of the 'cool' gang and scolded at for not being able to perform categorized me as an "outsider" and this created mental blocks in my mind. We have all been to our lowest points of our lives and have struggled to overcome it. I still struggle with those mental blocks which affects my life to this day, but I knew suicide was never the answer to this problem.
As time passed by and I grew older I realized that if I didn't exist then I would never be able to change the situation. I would never be able to see the other side of the fence. I know I have to work harder to unblock those mental blocks and see the light and now I have begun to enjoy my struggles.
If I can't jump over the fence directly I look for other ways to do it but my goal is the same no matter what. This whole life is all about that journey to get around the fence.
Sometimes I see low points and sometimes I see high points but I keep going.
So keep fighting till the end and be honest to yourself.
I don't know how many of you will read this post but I hope it will help someone. 😃
As I further looked into the reason behind his death I found he was suffering from depression, a very serious mental health problem that nobody wants to talk about. As days passed by I read in the news that a teenager who was depressed was triggered by Sushant's death and committed suicide. Another teenager committed suicide because he was harassed by society for having effeminate traits and felt that if Sushant could commit suicide then so could he.
These pieces of news triggered my past memories as I went back in time and analysed my situation. The feeling of not fitting in, not being part of the 'cool' gang and scolded at for not being able to perform categorized me as an "outsider" and this created mental blocks in my mind. We have all been to our lowest points of our lives and have struggled to overcome it. I still struggle with those mental blocks which affects my life to this day, but I knew suicide was never the answer to this problem.
As time passed by and I grew older I realized that if I didn't exist then I would never be able to change the situation. I would never be able to see the other side of the fence. I know I have to work harder to unblock those mental blocks and see the light and now I have begun to enjoy my struggles.
If I can't jump over the fence directly I look for other ways to do it but my goal is the same no matter what. This whole life is all about that journey to get around the fence.
Sometimes I see low points and sometimes I see high points but I keep going.
So keep fighting till the end and be honest to yourself.
I don't know how many of you will read this post but I hope it will help someone. 😃
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